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Why Can't I?
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but > heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Citgo Sucks!!!!

Citgo Sucks!!!!Omigosh, I hate citgo and anything that has to do with Venezuelans. The stupid people just announced yesterday that they're moving and that sucks butt. I'm basically just going to vent on here right now cause I'm pissed. Like a bunch of people I know are either going to be out of a job or have to move to Houston where I won't get to see them worth crap. They're screwing everything up!!! Anyway, on a lighter note, we're fixing up our house more. Like right now we're putting ceremic tile in our kitchen and bathroom which is turning into a pain. Whenever we have to go to our laundry room we have to go outside, open up the garage, go oin through there and back out and around. It's so annoying. I'm ready to have all of it done so we won't have to mess with it anymore. There's really not much else to talk about right now and I'm on here at school during lunch and it's getting close to time to go so I'm gonna leave. ttyl. xoxo *((Julie))*

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Wednesday, April 07, 2004

I seriously need to get off my butt and update this thing more often! lol. Life is so boring right now. I swear there's like nothing much to do or going on. Omigosh I'm like totally wanting some candy and pop right now. I gave it up for lent so I'm like count down the hours till sunday so I can have it!!!! <-Sorry that was random. Anway, school's kinda sucking right now...I'm like failing english :o/ We're doing a bunch of crap over greek gods and goddesses right now and it's so boring and totally killing me. grrr. The cool thing though is that next year I get to be an NHS officer which is gonna be like tons of fun! I don't know about everyone else, but I'm like so freakin ready for summer so I'm out of school and don't have to put up with stupid teachers and do stupid projects. Rach thinks I have spring fever. lol. Omigosh, my Aunt's coming home from Hawaii in 13 more days!!!!! I'm like totally dying to hang out with her again. She hasn't been home in like 3 years so a ton of stuff has changed. Like last time she was here I was the queen of dorks...high water pants, ratty hair, thought I was the coolest...yah...I won't go there anymore. lol. I'm so incredibly bored right now so I'm just like babbling on here...I have homework I need to be doing like a science project that's due Friday, but I'm feeling super lazy!~ Oh yah, just so everyone who knows Nicole, she went to engineering challenge today and her bridge held a whole 5 no wait 4 pounds! roflol. ~I love you Nicole!!! I gotta run...ttyl ~Julie

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Monday, February 02, 2004

Wow, it's been forever since I've updated this thing...kinda forgot I even had it! :o/ Anyway, quite a bit of stuff has happened since I've updated this, but most of it's just like boring and not worth wasting my time to type about, but there was a couple of worthwhile things that have happened. Like the 15th of January through the 18th (I think that's right) I went on Chrysalis which is like a girls and guys retreat but they go on different weekends. It was like the funnest ever thing except for practically running into the pole thing that was in between the doors. lol. I'm a klutz!! I would go into major detail about everything that happened at Chrysalis for the simple enjoyment of boring you to death because I would talk about it forever.......but the problem is I'm sworn to secrecy about it so that everything that happens at Chrysalis will be just as much of a surprise for the furture caterpillars who go as it was for me. :)

Last weekend Abby came over and spent the night and we acted like airheads and all the fun stuff. On Saturday night I went to a candle light service for the guy caterpillars. It started at like 8pm and didn't get out until 11pm! It was crazy. But yah...ummm I don't know what else to say so I'm gonna go contemplate whether or not I should go to the Valentines Day dance at school!

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Thursday, January 01, 2004
Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

I'm so ready to start a new year. Last year was so freakin crazy. It was a really bad year and a sorda good year too, but still I'm so ready to start a new year... I still can't believe it's already 2004. It's crazy cause it seemed like 03 barely started and now it's 04. lol. I went to my mom's friends house that she met in middle school to celebrate new years eve and stuff. It was great cause it took us like 47 hours just to find their house. lol. It was fun being there though cause Hannah and Rach and I just hung out with their daughter Katie and we watched Rach make a fool out of herself playing their playstation. For some reason Katie thinks I'm mental and I belong in a mental hospital...still haven't figured out why... :)

Ugh...what a year. lol. Last Tuesday was so sad...I went over to David and Sheri's to help them clean up their house but I actually ended up helping them finish packing. Matt and Chris showed up over there a little while after I got there which was kinda fun cause they're goobers. It was so sad when I walked in to their house it's so different cause there was hardly anything still in any of the rooms. It just looked so incredibly different. I still can't believe they're actually moving though. I'm totally in denial Like right now they're already in Ohio probably but I'm still thinking that they're gonna be at church like always next Sunday. Enough about that though. lol.

Anyway, I have to go for now...we have to take black eyed peas over to my grandma...I don't think I'll ever understand the whole black eyed peas on new years day thing...oh well. :o)

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Monday, December 22, 2003

Yesterday I had Christmas at one of my grandma's and it was a total disaster!!! We go over there and my prodigal sister Holly (who still hasn't returned home) was there with her husband so that added a lot of tension between everyone...I won't bore you with everything that happened I'll just leave it at this...Hannah and Rach and I ended up back in my grandma's bedroom crying for like 2 hours and everyone in our family hates us. The thing is though no one understands the situation so yah...I wanna scream so bad right now!

Anyway, not to much has happened lately except for David and Sheri announcing to the youth that they're leaving to move to Ohio December 31st. I'm still majorly in denial about it...it just doesn't seem possible. They've been like 2 of my best friends that I could always talk to and now they're leaving...it sucks. Within the last month or two like 7 of my closest friends have moved to a different location far away from here.

We still haven't completely finished our christmas shopping yet. It's crazy, but we are doing a lot better then usual because normally we would wait until christmas eve and have to do ALL of our shopping then and stay up all night getting everything wrapped and then we would all get pissed at each other. Fun times. lol. Since we almost have it done though we get to go to the christmas eve service at church and I get to see David and Sheri again before they leave. I get to see them wednesday and sunday and then they're gone. It doesn't seem possibile...

There's not much else to talk about so I'm gonna go because I'm not even supposed to be on here right now because I should be cleaning up the living room and I have to clean my bedroom then when everyone else gets home I have to wrap more presents so yah I'm gonna go...

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Monday, December 15, 2003

Anyone who knows me knows that I'm completely obsessesed (I can't spell) with surveys...I send a different one out just about every week so yah I decided to fill one out on here because I'm like i dunno...a dork. lol I'm sure there will be more of these gay surveys to come though. :)
First best friend: Brooke Brashier
First real memory of something: I dunno. lol
First car: my truck..my daddy thinks it's his, but he doesn't know what he's talking about. :)
First date: Never been on one...don't really care to either...
First real kiss: No real kiss yet, but I can tell ya one thing...it sure as heck aint gonna be from Ben (he's my creepy stalker at school)
First job: detailing airplanes
First screen name: godzgirl160 (that was back in the day...)
First self purchased album: I have no idea, but the most recent one would have to be Toby Keith's new Shock'n Y'all CD...everyone who doesn't have it should go get it now because Toby Keith is like the coolest!
First funeral: I don't really know
First pets: zoey...my pet fish...I've had a lot of fish, but they all die within like two weeks. :(
First piercing/tattoo: None yet...my parents are weird and they won't let me until I'm like 18 or something crazy like that...
First credit card: don't have any
First enemy: Kristina Hummingbird...I totally despise her!!!!
First big trip: Florida...I went with my family back in like 1995 or something lie that...it was forever ago.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: I don't know the name, but it was some old folk band that my parents listen to. lol
Last big car ride: Fall break when we went to Branson and Eureka Springs
Last good cry: I don't know if it would be considered a good cry, but last night
Last library book checked out: "A Child Called 'It'"...it's a really sad book about a kid who was abused in California
Last movie seen: Dumb and Dumberer...it was great! :)
Last beverage drank: Orange Juice
Last food consumed: Left over turkey from Thanksgiving
Last crush: Current crush and I aint telling who it is....<3
Last phone call: I don't talk on the phone...just aim
Last time showered: about 20 minutes ago...it was my first shower this month...J/K!
Last shoes worn: Sponge Bob Square Pants house shoes!!
Last cd played: Bon Jovi~Crush
Last annoyance: Being sick
Last disappointment: my oldest sister
Last time wanting to die: earlier today when I saw how upset my parents are because of my sister
Last time scolded: Probably last night, but I don't remember what for (that happens a lot)
Last shirt worn: tank top
Last website visited: my aol home page...
Five details about your appearance right now.
[x] i look like i haven't slept at all because i haven't since i stayed up all night crying
[x] i seriously need some fingernail polish remover which i will never use on cd's again NICOLE!!!
[x] need make up!!!!!
[x] my clothes are totally mismatched
[x] my hair needs serious help

Five things you did today.
[x] cried
[x] got on the internet
[x] cried
[x] listened to simple plan
[x] cried

Five things that everyone should know about you.
[x] I love the lake
[x] I love airplanes
[x] I love Randy(my adopted daddy!)
[x] I'm a dork
[x] I need a life. lol

Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday.
[x] Martina McBride
[x] Simple Plan
[x] Toby Keith
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Relient K

Five things that make you happy.
[x] Going to the lake
[x] Talking to Randy
[x] Airplanes
[x] My family
[x] Football

Five things that disgust you.
[x] Liars
[x] child molesters
[x] back stabbers
[x] Kristina H.
[x] people that don't even try to do anything with their life

Five things you can't live without.
[x] family
[x] talking to Randy, David, and Sheri
[x] the lake
[x] email
[x] best friends

Five things you'll do when you complete this.
[x] listen to my music
[x] cry
[x] clean an airplane
[x] cry
[x] sleep and cry

Five things you feel right now.
[x] sad
[x] tired
[x] mad at God
[x] depressed
[x] sad

do you like candles?: no
do you like hot wax?: yes...it's fun to play with
do you like incense?: incense??? I don't even know what that is. lol.
do you believe in love?: definitely!
do you believe in soul mates: i guess...i don't really know though
do you believe in love at first sight?: lust at first sight, but not love at first sight
do you believe in heaven?: yah
do you believe in forgiveness?: yes and no
do you believe in God?: most of the time...

who is your worst enemy?: Kristina H. and Mr. K.
if you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?: A monkey
what are five cities you wouldn't mind relocating to: broken arrow...and ummm...i can't think of anymore
what are some of your favorite pig out foods?: chips, nutter butters, and any other lake food. lol
what's something that you wish people would understand?: why I'm angry with my oldest sis, and basically just me in general...
what's something you wish you could understand better?: why I'm the way I am...
who's someone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: Randy, Kim, Casey, Kelly, Uncle Dale, Chris, Aunt Barbara
a. Ever dated anyone who was your best friend before?: nope
b. Would you consider dating you best friends ex?: I would NEVER do that to my best friend
c. Have you kissed your best friends ex?: no way

[x] never getting to tell people I love how I feel about them
[x] David and Sheri being so far away
[x] Monsters

[x] Randy
[x] Brian
[x] Nicole

[x] family
[x] best friends
[x] the lake!!

[x] Kristina H./Mr. K.
[x] liars
[x] my bestest friends having to move

[x] my oldest sis
[x] Me
[x] Life

[x] Pics of my bestest friends
[x] junk
[x] more junk

[x] listening to simple plan
[x] trying not to cry
[x] thinking about David and Sheri

[x] get married
[x] make my oldest sis (holly) realize how stupid she is
[x] laugh so hard I cry

[x] be a dork
[x] giggle at really stupid stuff
[x] make guys cry

[x] be proper (I'm just not like that...acting like a girly girl doesn't work for me...)
[x] fix anything without burning it
[x] keep a straight face

[x] dorky
[x] giggly
[x] annoying. lol

[x] kinda tall and fat
[x] hazzle eyes
[x] short, light brown hair that looks like my grandma's when i wake up. :)

[x] Toby Keith
[x] Randy (he's smart and funny)
[x] the little devil that sits on your shoulder!

[x] Liars (i.e. Holly)
[x] idiots
[x] druggies

[x] Lol
[x] I'm a dork
[x] roflol

[x] I
[x] Hate
[x] Food

[x] why my best friends have to leave
[x] why God hates me
[x] why everyone can't just get along

[x] Coke
[x] Moutain Dew (it makes me hyper)
[x] Orange juice (when my parents won't let me have pop)

[x] Teletubies
[x] Seseme Street
[x] Barney

------------RIGHT NOW------------
* Wearing: Red shirt with my pj's that are like purple they totally clash. lol
* I'm feeling: sad and depressed
* Eating: nothing
* Drinking: nothing
* Thinking about: getting to see Randy
* Listening to: Simple Plan
* Talking to: Brooke Kerr

------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------
* Cried: yup
* Worn a skirt: Yesterday to church
* Met someone new: nope and I don't plan on it
* Cleaned your room: yah right...lol
* Done laundry: nope
* Driven a car: nope...my daddy won't let me drive till I'm 40. lol.

------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------
*Yourself: Never
* Your friends: most of the time
* Santa Claus: whatever
* Tooth Fairy: refer to Santa Claus
* Angels: not anymore
* Ghosts: nope
* UFO's: they're for people who have no life and imagine things...

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
* Like anyone?: yes ;)
* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Brooke, Kelsey, and Matt
* When you cried the most: like the last year and yesterday after David and Sheri told us they were moving
* What is the best feeling in the world: Riding the sea-doo at the lake and not having a care in the world
* Worst Feeling: disapointing someone I love and having someone I love disappoint me
* Who sent this to you: stole it

[bands] singer* Toby Keith, Simple Plan, Good Charlotte, Plus One
[subject] English, history
[food] lake food
[color] Red

*this or that*
[boxers or briefs?] boxers
[plaid or striped?] Striped
[scream or scream2 or scream3?] I dunno...haven't seen any of them
[ska or punk?] punk
[salt or pepper?] salt
[okay, ok, or o.k.?] okay
[bright colors or dark colors?] bright
[tic-tacs or certs?] neither...they taste nasty
[sunshine or rain?] sunshine
[rain or snow?] rain
[sun or moon?] sun
[silver or gold?] Silver
[silk, cotton, or flannel sheets?] silk
[preps or freaks?] freaks...they're the coolest
[popcorn-with or w/out butter?] With
[ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish?] none!
[shampoo+conditioner in one or separate?] seperate

*short answer*
[are you smart?] sometimes...if I feel like it, but most of the time I'm just ditzy
[do you like onions?] NOOOO!
[what instruments can you play?] I'm musically challenged!
[what words do you overuse?] lol, yah, dork
[do you like to fingerpaint?] and mess up my nails? whatever. :)
[do you sleep with socks on?] yah
[are you ticklish?] not really anymore
[are you shy?] sometimes
[do you talk to yourself?] all the time
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 stories] 47. lol....2
[do you have a basement or an attic?] attic
[did you go to preschool?] I don't know. lol
[are you a morning person?] no way

*hard questions*
[would you rather burn to death or freeze to death?] freeze
[are the best things in life free?] yah, like love and friends and family and laughing and all that good stuff.
[can money buy happiness?] for a time
[if you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you make it?] pink
[if you had to get a body piercing right now where would it be?] belly button and ears
[if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be?] I dunno...something cute though

4 FAVORITE GIRL NAMES: Zoey, Nicole, Ashley, Chloey
4 FAVORITE BOY NAMES: Randy, Brian, Matt, Jeremy
FAVORITE SOUNDS: Airplanes when they fire up their engines
FAVORITE SMELLS: sweet pea, frying bacon, the lake
4 FAVORITE MOVIES: Dumb and Dumber, Dumb and Dumberer, Bruce Almighty, Freaky Friday
4 FAVORITE T.V SHOWS: Whose line is it anyway, AFV
ALL OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS (Max 15): Randy, Matt, Krista, Natalie, Brooke K, Brooke B, Nicole, Abby, Rebekah, Lindsay, Monica, Kelsey, Ashley, Katie, Brian, Hannah, Rach, David, Sheri
WHO IS UR FAVORITE TEACHER: Mrs. Worley this year, Mrs. Prather last year
YOUR 6 FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS: these questions repeat a lot
YOUR 7 FAVORITE SONGS: Everyday, Angry American, I'm Just a Kid, Concrete Angel, You don't mean anything, I wanna talk about me, Be love, 3 wooden crosses

What is love? the best feeling in the world
Name one thing you feel very passionate about: the lake
Does fire fascinate you? yah
Do you have a short temper? yah
Are you a friend to dragons? i dunno
Are you very warm hearted? sometimes
Do you feel intense emotions? yah

Are you bright? sometimes
What is the most wholesome thing you've done lately? I have no idea
Is vibrance a good characteristic to have? I guess...
Are you rich in self confidence? Nope
Are you rich in vitamin c? yup

Are you a very happy person? When I'm talking to Randy, at the lake, or at the airport, yes
Do you like the sun? Heck yah
Do you ever feel utter and complete joy? yup
Do you feel like the volume in your life is all the way up? not really
Do you feel warm inside when you hug people? yah
If you were a care bear would you be cheer bear? nah
Are you lemon scented? what the heck? lol

Are you incredibly lucky? nope
Are you easy going? most of the time
Are you very mischievous? who me??? :)
Are you very lusty/sexy? you know it. lol
Ever find a four leafed clover? no...i thought i did a couple of times and then i realized i had miscounted. lol
Are you fresh like mint? these questions are weird
Does nature speak to you? like i said...weird ?'s

Do you love to look at water? Heck yah
Are you calm/relaxed? sometimes
Is it very difficult to upset you? not at all
Are you at peace? kinda
Are you comforting? i dunno
Are you well balanced? not really
Are you content? usually

Are you royalty? Yes now bow down to me. lol
Are you very free spirited? most of the time
Are you conceited? sometimes
Do you have a passion for indulgence? what the heck?!
Are you a grape? omigosh, this is retarded
Are you a purple horseshoe? What a stupid question, no I am not a lucky charms marshmallow

Are you less than intense? probably...i dunno
Are you incredibly feminine? not really

Do you absorb everything possible? yah right
Are you incredibly energetic? only if I'm going to the lake
Current Mood: ditzy
Current Music: Simple Plan

:x: movie you rented = Finding Nemo
:x: movie you bought = I don't remember
:x: song you listened to = I'm just a kid
:x: song that was stuck in your head = You don't mean anything
:x: cd you bought = Plus One-Exodus
:x: cd you listened to = Simple Plan
:x: person you've called = David
:x: tv show you've watched = I don't know
:x: person you were thinking of = David and Sheri

:x: you think about suicide = sometimes
:x: you believe in online dating = Whatever!
:x: you want more piercings = considering the fact that I don't have any yes, my ears and belly button
:x: you drink = not yet..
:x: you do drugs = No because I don't want to be like Sammy
:x: you smoke = No

:x: long distance relationships = Against...they never work out
:x: using someone = against because it's totally worng
:x: killing people = AGAINST
:x: teenage smoking = Don't care either way
:x: premarital sex = Don't care either way about that either!
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = It's nasty, but there's like so many gay people at my school, and two of them are in my first hour

:x: ever cried over a guy/girl = yah
:x: ever lied to someone = no brainer
:x: ever been arrested = nope

:x: of times you have been in love? = I don't know
:x: of times you have had your heart broken? = Too many to count
:x: of hearts you have broken? = too many to count
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = None so far
:x: of people you would classify as true friends, that you could trust with your life = probably 7
:x: of people you consider your enemies? = 1...Kristina Hummingbord!!!!!
:x: of things in your past that you regret? = more then i can count

:x: scent = Sweet Pea, frying bacon, the lake
:x: word = sea-doo
:x: eye color = blue
:x: flower = rose
:x: piercing = belly button

:x: pretty = whatever
:x: funny = Sometimes
:x: hot = whatever
:x: friendly = I try to be...sometimes it doesn't work as well as others
:x: amusing = most of the time
:x: loveable = yah right
:x: pessimistic = Heck yah
:x: optimistic = whatever
:x: caring = yah
:x: sweet = no
:x: dorky = Heck Yah
:x: Spell your first name back wards: eiluj
:x: 5 words that sum you up: incredibly, outrageously retarded and stupid

:x: Wallet = the back pocket of my pants
:x: Toothbrush = Orange with red sharpee so Hannah and I don't mix ours up
:x: Jewelry worn daily = I don't wear jewelry
:x: Pillow cover = White that says sleeping under the stars at camp eagen and it has a ton of writing on it because all my friends signed it.
:x: Blanket = blue and white
:x: Coffee cup = don't have one
:x: Sunglasses = black and sportyish
:x: Shoes = flip flops that say Rams on them
:x: Handbag = Owasso Rams
:x: Favorite shirt = one from last year that every one signed
:x: CD in stereo right now = Simple Plan
:x: What you are wearing now = Red shirt with my pj's
:x: Hair = brown
:x: Make-up = none

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth = gum
:x: In my head = weird thoughts
:x: Wishing = David and Sheri didn't have to leave
:x: After this = airport
:x: Talking to = myself...Brooke got off
:x: Person you wish you were with = David and Sheri
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month = Nothing
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of? = David and Sheri moving
:x: Do you like the taste of blood = kinda...
:x: Do you believe in love = yes
:x: Do you believe in soul mates = sorda
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight = lust at first site but not love at first sight
:x: Do you believe in God = at the moment no because he's taking David and Sheri away from me
:x: What do you want done with your body when you die = Cremated and thrown into the lake. lol
:x: Who is your worst enemy? = KRISTINA HUMMINGBIRD!!!
:x: If you could have any animal for a pet = spider monkey
:x: Ever been to Belgium? = Never even been out of the US
:x: What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? = Broken Arrow, or wherever it is that David and Sheri are moving to...
:x: What's something you wish you could understand better? = why people have to move and die and leave and all that stuff

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